Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in antihero23's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
1:18 am	hahaha this is stupid... no one reads these ever... im deleting this hahahahaha (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
9:40 pm	Bored insanity.. Yeah Im sitting here bored out of my mind... Havnt eaten in like 3 days.. sooo I took all my change to the changestar machine and got some food. mmmmmmm food. Other than that I cleaned my apartment a bit and continue teaching myself russian. oh and I took some pictures with my shity web cam..... hahaha not that anyone reads these... so Im kinda talking to myself right now.. huh... wow.. how are you travis? ehhh i guess im ok travis.. shoot me with a potato gun.. Current Mood: curious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 18th, 2006
4:30 am	Life Trials. I fell from a ladder the other day.. well to be more exact I fell with a ladder the other day. As I was falling I managed to wedge my arm in between the ladder and a bar... Ive got the cuts to prove it hah... and I was stuck there for a time. Now in order to get down I had to jump and pull my arm out.. falling 6 feet to the ground below.. I bounced by the way. Anyways my point, I relized... maybe im over analyzing things.. but in order to move through life we need to fall once and awhile. It seems that most often than not we put our arm out to catch ourselves from falling. Scared of being hurt... but what happens when we get stuck and the only way to get down is to hurt ourselves more. I mean sure sometimes that means the fall wont be as bad but it still hurts. Life is full of choices.. chances to take.. and if we dont take them where will we be. Stuck in the middle cutting our own arms off. I dont know.. lots going on and its 4:30 in the morning.. See how pathetic i can be.. I think about this after falling of a ladder... Ill be suprised if anyone reads this.. and if you do.. sorry... Getting up every time I fall till it kills me, Trav Current Mood: weird Current Music: Heaven Shall Burn (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
3:29 pm	Unfettered attraction threw brambleing bushes in Mason City Here I am sitting at work. Joy.. not so much. The last two days at work have been boring as fuck! I need to start introvienously injecting Mt. Dew. At least today I have internet access.. even though I have to conceal what Im doing ever five min. I swear people are trying to catch me fucking up. Which brings me to a convo I had earlier today with a friend. She posted a picture on myspace of her in just underwear. Very artistic yet people were saying if she didnt delete it they would delete her off there friends list..... SO FUCKING WHAT! Its fucking myspace... and if you cant tell the difference between pornography and art then who cares if you delete people. I swear most people in this country need to learn what culture is.. need to stop living in there closed "sheltered" little worlds and enjoy life. Im seriously sick of it.. to the point that i have festering boils apearing on the bottoms of my feet. word of advice for everyone.. STOP TRYING TO CONTROL AND START ACCEPTING AND LEARNING FROM PEOPLE. Anyways last night I had a wonderfull time with Lindsay. Went downtown and walked around and took photos. Hah saw my friend tatter... he is hanging out with a bunch of indians and was excited cuz he is getting a volkswagon bus! Power to the gutter punks and street people! Thank the gods for places like the old market and interesting beyond the norm people! But my mother is being bitchy.. Anyways Im off to sit around stupified by how fucked this world is. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Gogol Bordello (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
5:27 pm	nothing Im dead........ (Comment on this)
Monday, February 6th, 2006
1:23 am	Hah... Im happy as hell.. but at the same time.. all I want to do right now is die.. (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 4th, 2006
1:40 am	Remove Yourself So my ex fiance called me the other day. She and her new husband are having a little girl. Arwen... haha thats what we were going to name our kid if we had one.. or Toven if it was a boy... Crazy to see her married with a baby on the way. Dont get me wrong Im more than excited and happy for her! We came to the conclusion 3 years ago that we make better friends than mates. Well its Febuary.. This month sometime I get my week vacation. Going to Colorado! Might not come back...... seriously.... I miss Colorado so fucking much. HAH today is the day I moved here a year ago... Ohh well. I dont think I belong anywhere.. Im a traveler by soul and mind. Destruction.. war.. fight in defense... forgoten work.. a friendly hate.. war.. destruction.. i dont know why.. i soon decesed... broken hope.. a choke released.. war.. destruction.. cant you take me away from your eyes... destruction.. dark paradise... collecting souls.. to analyze.. war.. destruction.. Random lyrics.. ill give you a cookie if you know who it is.. More... Ill wait here... your crazy.. those visious streets are filled with strays.. you should ove never gone to hollywood... they find you.. two time you.. say youre the best theyve ever seen.. you should of never trusted hollywood.. i wrote you.. and told you.. you were the bigest fish out here.. you should of never gone to hollywood.. they take you.. and make you.. they look at you in disgusting ways.. you should of never trusted hollywood... I was standing on the wall.. feeling 10 feet tall.. all you maggots smoking fags on santa monica blvd... this is my front page.. this is my new rage.. all you bitches put your hands in the air and wave em like you just dont care.. fony people come to pray.. look at all of them beg to stay.. ok im done.... Even though no one reads these...... Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Candiria (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
5:45 pm	Life... Sandwitches... Homicidal Teddy Bears Threw unconventional means do we try and prove our worth to society... All "trend setters" are outcasts and looked down upon. I've noticed that the things that were not part of the "in crowd" are now part of it. The true dreamers are years before average society right? Look at the past... most great men were considered nobodies and freaks during there time. In its purest forms; majority can not cope with life.. They must latch onto others to tell them where to go. Us slight few who dont are looked at as abominations. Abnormal in most ways... We travel threw life suffering self ridicule. Message not to the clone sheep that roam but the shepards. Dont fall into this mind set that you're a loser freak. True beauty in the word is different then everything around itself.. therefore true difference is good. I dont know Im ranting about useless melodramatic nonsense... or is it? Current Mood: morose Current Music: Switchblade Symphony (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 28th, 2006
10:40 pm	Bad Boys whatcha gunna do? OMG Im bored out of my fucking mind!!! Ive been sitting around playing Halo all day... and now Im watching Bad Boys... Lindsay was suppose to get off an hour ago and call me... but she hasnt called me. Damn it I hope shes ok!! Probably just stayed longer at work. :0( Im just going to go get some gas and cigs and drive around... Damn it. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: SwitchBlade Symphony (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
11:24 pm	first so this is my first lj... i donno... im going insane for some reason.... i need to find excitement or something... (1 Comment |Comment on this)